my stomach feels heavy and edgy.
my heart is beating faster than usual.
i am nervous for him.
i am excited for him.
today is the first day of school for tom.
i so much want school to be a place where he is nurtured. where he is challenged. where he is engaged.
i loved school. till i realised it wasn't cool to. till i was ostracised for doing well.
i am literally praying he will find some like-minded little people to connect with. that his experience will far exceed my own. that he can be his own person.
i am eagerly awaiting the story of tom to unfold. he has so much potential. he has a gift for encouragement. he is inquisitive. he loves to read and write and draw and build and create. he is gentle. he is trusting. he is mine.
this new phase of his life should have a banner for mothers like one of those car rear window stickers:
get in. sit down. shut up. hang on.
i can hardly wait to watch the development of my boy. the ride of his life. and the ride of my life.
postscript: tom's day went wonderfully well. no tears, no trauma. as perfectly well as anyone could hope for. thank you for your well-wishes.
